Have you ever been totally-super-psyched because your brother’s getting married again, but you’re even more excited this time because you seriously love his bride and you’re thrilled she’s going to be the sister you’ve always wanted. And then you have the time of your life at your brother’s wedding, because it was the best wedding ever, and you couldn’t be happier.
But then, just 24 hours later, you receive a phone call, only to find out your ex-boyfriend, a man you loved very deeply, lost his battle with addiction and depression, and took his own life, leaving you utterly devastated and overwhelmed with anger and sadness, and you can’t even talk about it because it hurts too much.
And then, just 24 hours after that, you come down with the worst sickness of all time – second only to having pneumonia. And you just can’t deal with anything else or anyone else, so you close your blog, log out of Facebook, ignore emails and text messages, and stay in bed bed for an entire week, watching Six Feet Under, because you’re too sore from dancing at the wedding, and too sad from burying your lover, and too tired from the sickness.
No?
Well – I do.
And it was awful.
But now it’s time to pick myself up, dust myself off, and attempt to rejoin society.
And there’s no better way to get back into the blogging zone other than a 30 Day Photo Challenge. Come September 1st be prepared to see daily posts from me based on the prompts provided by the hosts and two of my favorite people: Mike WJ and Ziva.
I hope YOU will consider joining us too?
Lastly, I’d like to share this incredible video with you.
It’s beautiful, poignant, and absolutely inspiring.
Here’s to second chances.
Hey Mia, I knew you’d been poorly after the wedding, but I didn’t know the rest of the tale. It’s a tragedy; I’m sad for your late beau and all those who loved him. Indigo x
When it rains, it shit storms. I’m so sorry you’re in such a rough patch and of course any online time is a last priority now, but just know you have a lot of support out here and you can reach out if you ever need to (for what it’s worth.) It doesn’t make things better, but it makes things a bit more bearable. Get Well Soon!
Indigo,
Thank you.
I still can’t really bring myself to say he committed suicide OUT LOUD.
Thank you, Abby.
I think I am done laying in bed, and I think getting back into the swing of things -like blogging and interacting with people – will help me feel better!
XOXO
I hope you are feeling better. It sounds like a very emotional August.
Sweetie, my heart has been with you this past couple weeks and all you’ve been going through. Sometimes ya just have to wonder what in hell Life has goin’ on that all this ends up in your lap at once. What I do know is you are strong enough to come through it, even if you’re a little more tired…there are a ton of us sending you all the mad ninja-love vibes you could ever want!
HUG. I don’ t know what else to say, but my heart aches for you and I’m holding you tight in my head.
I know the overwhelming sadness and sickness each made the other worse. I am glad you are finding your way back into the light again. Take your time and take it easy on yourself.
I do understand and I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m glad you’re feeling better physically. I know that the type of loss you experienced is something that I personally can never get over, but only learn to live with. Take care of yourself 🙂 <3
Honestly, this whole year has been really difficult. But August has been brutal. That’s for sure.
Aw. Thank you, Chris. I love you.
XOXO
XOXOXOXOXO
I can’t lie last week was the worst week, maybe ever.
But, I need to get back to the land of the living. Like now.
I love you Monkee.
Thanks, Maria.
It’s REALLY hard to wrap my head around suicide.
I mean, on the one hand, I can’t even begin to imagine how much pain Sonny must have been in, to think that was his ONLY option.
But, on the other hand, I know he’s been struggling and suffering for YEARS with depression and a nasty drug addiction [which is why we broke up] and I am holding on to the idea that it was just too painful for him to stay on this earth, and maybe now, his suffering is over and he can finally rest in peace.
Sending you lots and lots of love and a big ((((((((((hug)))))))))). Sadly, suicide hits home for me in many ways …. its been over 15 years, the hurt still hasn’t faded. And even though I have been in the same position as the loved ones I lost, I still can not wrap my brain around the why of it all, but I have finally learned to accept it. XOXO
Well, Meleah, you and I must be travelling under the same dark star. A week ago Friday was my daughter’s 10th anniversary. They’ve had a rough marriage and seemed to be doing better. We spent last weekend in San Diego with old friends and had a wonderful time. Monday night, my daughter called crying. Her husband had assaulted her in front of the kids and was being taken to jail. We drove all night and I spent the week seeing attorneys and courtrooms. He is under a restraining order to stay away from her and the kids. We came back to CAFriday and had plans with friends (see my Monday Smiles) which were great. Except over dinner, I broke off a front tooth. Bad times are always worse when they come on the heels of good ones. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I probably won’t be posting as much for a while but maybe I’ll join the Photo Challenge on days I don’t write.
I am so sorry Meleah !
Now knowing how Sonny died makes it even more tragic. I cannot find the right words to say at the moment.
{{Hugs}} my friend. Get well soon !
Something tells me that’s just the thing to get you back in the swing of things. There will be better days ahead, you’re a strong, determined, resilient woman, you’ll see. Every day may not be good, but there is good in every day.
Okay, I had tears in my eyes watching this video, Meleah.
Yes, beautiful, poignant, and absolutely inspiring.
Please know that you have been in my thoughts these past few weeks; sharing much love with you, my friend.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( You ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
And I’m so glad to hear about you participating in the photo challenge. Looking forward to seeing your amazing photographs!
X ya, Meleah!
Meleah, please take solace in knowing that you were responsible for some happy times in Sonny’s life. Remember the good times you had and I hope you feel better soon. So sorry you’re going through a bad patch. xoxo
I love you too, Leslie!
This is one of the most difficult things to understand and I doubt I ever will.
Wow, Bud. You sure have a lot on your plate too.
I’m terribly sorry to hear about your daughter.
I’ve been in her position before so I truly know what she’s going through.
Sending you guys love and strength.
Thank you, Jaffer.
You’re a good friend.
Thank you, Jimmy.
And this photo challenge could NOT have come at a better time.
It’s EXACTLY what I need to get out of this funk and back into the groove.
I love you are the only words I can think to say for you right now. (((hugs)))
Ron,
Isn’t that video just the greatest thing EVER?
I watch the show So You Think You Can Dance religiously. And I cried MY FACE OFF when I saw this live.
The next day I found the clip online, and honestly, I’ve watched it 100 times.
It’s given ME the strength to pick myself up and get on with my life again.
I’m all about second chances.
XOXOXOX
Thank you, Marty.
And I am totally holding on to remembering the wonderful times Sonny & I shared.
“It’s given ME the strength to pick myself up and get on with my life again. I’m all about second chances.”
You GO, girl!
X ya!!!!!!!
Oh, Meleah, I am so sorry to hear about your ex. Loss is so hard and that kind of loss is devastating to those that loved him. (I know this first hand)
On the brighter side…I am thrilled you love your new “sister”. Good sister-in-laws don’t always happen. Your family deserves a good one to join your ranks.
Hope you are feeling better on both the physical and the emotional side. ((((((hugs)))))
I hope you are feeling a lot better now. What a tragedy, that your happiness was shattered that way. It’s no wonder you got ill.
Glad to see you back, but don’t rush back on our account. We can wait.
Loved the video, and the post. Life’s all about second chances for me too, and HOPE, even while your heart’s breaking. I’ve ached for you these last few weeks, but as always, you’ve somehow found the strength to share your pain and move on. That’s the most inspiring part of who you are Meleah xxxooo
I love you too, June.
XOXOX
I am totally psyched about my NEW sister-in-law. She’s ALREADY like my best friend. I can’t get enough of her!
My last sister-in-law was a fucking cunt. Excuse my language, but she really was.
I’m finally feeling a little better. I think coming back to blogging and socializing with you guys is the best thing for me right now.
🙂
Thank you, Babs.
I definitely think I got sick because it was just way too much for my body to handle all of this at once and I just needed to shut down, completely.
But now it’s time for me to return to the land of the living, starting now.
Awww! Sue!
Thank you my friend.
Thank you very much.
XOXOX
So glad to hear it Meleah 🙂
I understand completely not understanding suicide. I’ve ha 2 family members…all I know is from people who have truly attempted suicide and thankfully made it, they say they hardly remember because they were in such a fog almost like an out of body experience 🙁
xoxox
It’s just so horrible.
Hi Meleah, pleased your coming out of the clouds towards the sunshine again.
Love the photo idea I will perhaps have a go. I will have a look at the rules tomorrow.
I once had a friend over 30 years ago, he found he had a terminal illness and the next day he threw himself in front of an express train. That was hard for not only his family but also the many friends he left behind.
Even now some thirty odd years later I think of him at least once a week.
Hey, Robert.
Long time no see.
I do hope you join the photo challenge.
And I am terribly sorry to hear about your friend.
🙁
You sure have been through the wringer lately! I don’t know what to say, except I’m sorry for your loss and pain. I read about the newest photo challenge on Mike’s FB page and hope to join in too. I’ve been really busy in the studio lately, but do have a new camera (another one!) and this challenge will help me get to know all the bells and whistles of this new toy of mine.
Well, no. I haven’t EVER. Whoo, what a time for you. So sorry about your guy. I still care about my exes, and that would be a devastating loss. 🙁 Know that you and his loved ones have my sympathy.
And I know you were feeling crappy sick after the wedding, so it’s great to see you!
Oh yay! I can’t wait for the photo challenge!
It’s good to be back, Abby.
It really is. Y’all make me feel so much better.
I have been about and observing, inbetween visiting mum in hospital, she should be out within the week I am pleased to say. The photo challenge intrigues me so will hopefully have a go.
Oh, good!