Feeling Better…wait, NO I AM NOT

REVISED:
(8pm) I thought I was feeling better, UNTIL I GOT OUT OF MY BED.

I didn’t write anything other than this (before getting out of bed and trying to be productive.) I didn’t work beacuse I COULDN’T WORK. It hurt my body to be sitting upright at a desk. My shoulders, my back, my neck, my head, my chest all still hurt. (that kind of full body ache and every single muscle is on fire with soreness after an intense hardcore workout, not that I have done that in over a year either) And after Leslie suggested waxing while sick may not be a “good idea” I didn’t do that either. I’d probaly end up in some emergency room with third degree burns, or something stuck where it shouldn’t have been. Thought it best to wait until my equalibrium is at an even keel again.

I guess my mom is right yet again. (damn it, that woman is always right.) I have no idea how sick I really am.

It’s just incredibly close to impossible to just SIT HERE. LAYING HERE in my bed. Without the need / urge to DO SOMETHING. When I am healthy, I am constantly working, cleaning, on the move, shopping, buzzing around. But, now, and for the last week, as soon as I try to do ANYTHING I am exhausted- weak- faint and I have to stop. I made one phone call to have food delivered so my son could eat and I watched a movie on the sofa with him. and I am DONE! I’m now BACK IN BED.

*Starting to get depressed* I keep TRYING to do things, and when I can’t do them, I start to get upset.

I haven’t ben able to spend time or play with my son. My house is a mess and I can’t clean it up. My work is in stacks behind me, taunting me. I can’t imagine being redy to go back to work on Monday if I can’t even do a simple thing in my house in my pajamas.

How long is this going to last? I had hope this afternoon when I woke up having some energy, for all of 45 minutes, that I was getting better. This sucks!

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It’s Saturday 2pm. I just woke up….and I feel sort-of better having slept for the past two days. My sleep patterns are all screwed up having been sick. There is something in that cough syrup that messed me up. It would either knock me out, or, cause excitability at times.

For some reason (I think it was that cough syrup) I did manage to wake up Thursday night / Friday morning at 4am and worked on a few accounts until 8am. But that was about all I could accomplish because I climbed right back into bed Friday morning at 8am.

Going from my bed to my sofa was a chore unto itself. So I haven’t written or done much of anything other than be flat.

Thank you for all your emails of concern. Yes, I am alive, yes I am on the road to feeling better.

Today I will write, (new post to be up later, or by tomorrow) wax, (don’t ask) and get to work on a few more accounts for the office.

Tomorrow I will clean my house and do laundry.

Monday back to work.

Or at least that’s what I am PLANNING on doing.

PS… NO ONE HAS REALLY COMMENTED ON THE “JCH PRODUCTIONS” MOVIE BELOW….IS IT TERRIBLE? and no one has the heart to tell me?