Dear Mom,
I am writing you this letter to express to you just how much I admire, respect, and look up to you.
If I could be anyone in the world, famous, rich, dead or alive, I would want to be you. I can’t wait for the day for someone to say to me, “You are just like your mother.”
I hear women always complaining about their mothers, and doing everything to avoid growing up to be like their mothers…not me. I can’t wait to grow up and be just like you.
First of all, your grace and style are second to none. Your loving and giving nature which is such a natural part of your character make-up, is inspiring. Your spirituality has given me faith when I had none, and has helped me grow once I found a sense of faith.
You have made the ultimate sacrifices for your children. You have defended and protected me when I was most desperate. You let me go, and make my own mistakes, only praying with extreme heartache that the outcome would be successful.
The emotional pain of raising 2 children on your own, having 4 kids at one time, step kids, divorces, ex-husbands, household moves, boarding schools, runaway children, addiction, alcoholism, Alzheimers, old age, deaths, pregnancies, births, marriages, life on lifes terms. Heartbreak and joy… and all while looking fantastic!
You have rolled the dice and taken your chances with me time and time again, without ever taking away your love from me.
You have taken care of my son, like no other grandmother I know. You have taken him into your heart, and you have HEALED my son’s scars. You undid damage inside of him I thought would never go away. You let my son be a kid. You taught him that it was safe, you gave him an adult he could trust, when he had no one else in the world to turn to.
No matter what emotional pain you suffered from decisions you had to make regarding your daughter, you made those decisions based only on what was best for ME, never what would be easier for YOU.
I can only HOPE that one day I will be able to do that for my son.
I respect you more than you can EVER know. I admire you in ways I don’t know how to express. I love you more than the whole sky!!
I am PROUD to have you as my mother. I am LUCKY to have you as my mother. I am GRATEFUL to have you as my mother.
I love the way our relationship has evolved over these past two years.
Even from rock bottom, to now, the ride has been long, difficult, and hard work, but worth every single step.
I love that I trust you. I love that I can tell you virtually everything, with safety, honesty, and sometimes I’m even OPEN to advice now!!!
I love that we can TALK everything through to the other side of the problems, and get to our solutions. Solutions that work for BOTH of us. I love that we don’t STAY in the problem.
I love that after one of those talks, we walk away with a stronger relationship, a better understanding of each others feelings, and needs, and a genuine attempt to work and change whatever is upsetting the other party.
I love how we laugh together, I love how we cry together, I’m NOT a big of a fan of yelling at each other, which is something that we have not done in a long time!!!!
I love knowing without a shadow of doubt in my mind that my mothers allegiance is to ME.
Without you, without your love, without your faith, I have no idea where I would be today.
I love you Mommy.
Forever,
xoxoxoxoxox Meleah xooxoxoxoxo
