Suffering From A Case Of Burnt The Fuck Out

 

As I look at this blank piece of paper, I see the curser…blinking at me with anticipation, taunting me. And all I have is hesitation.

I cannot write today.

I am blank, much like this piece of paper. I have no thoughts and no words.

 

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41 Responses to Suffering From A Case Of Burnt The Fuck Out

  1. Dazd says:

    Must be contagious…feeling the same myself. I think its the Holidays and all the extra activities we feel we are obligated to participate.

  2. Selma says:

    I hear ya. I am definitely in that state myself. Sounds like we all need a big rest!

  3. Meleah says:

    Maybe I am feeling this way as a result of one too many events, right after the other, in a very short window of time?

    *I am certainly on a sensory overload, thus shutting my brain functions down to a minimum*

    I mean, let’s just take a quick overview of everything that has happened in my life during the past 6 weeks:

    The Move
    Thanksgiving
    The Death
    My Annual Review
    Hanukkah
    Further Invasive Testing
    Scary Articles = Scary Memories
    Office Christmas Parties
    Company Meetings
    Prepping and Shopping for Christmas
    New Responsibilities In The Office
    Ect Ect Ect

    All of these ‘events’ have been nothing shorty of stress / anxiety inducing.

    Everything must have caught up to me at once, and now taking its toll.

    I really have NOT had One. Single. Day. OFF.

    (Since….. I can’t remember when?)

    I think I just need 24 hours, in my own bed, in my new pajamas, watching TV.

    But, who as time for that?

    I would settle for an hour of complete silence, with a steaming cup of hot coffee and a good book next to the fireplace.

    But. NO.

    I have too much on my plate (at work, and at home) to attend to, before the New Year kicks off.

    When I get into this kind of mood:

    funky-irritable-moody-bitchy-depressed
    because-I-am-over-worked-and-I-cant-relax
    with-the-racing-thoughts-jumbled-in-my-head
    there-is-too-much-to-do
    I-am-screaming-on-the-inside-smiling-on-the-outside
    please-god-make-it-stop
    mode….

    the last thing I can do is write anything coherent.

  4. Rolando says:

    Sorry you have writer’s block Meleah. What can I do? πŸ™‚

  5. Stealth says:

    You need to take. a. day. off. You don’t look for the time – you MAKE the time. Do it now.

  6. Meleah says:

    Rolando & Stealth:

    Maybe? You guys write me a doctors note? Like a prescription for some R&R?

  7. Mimzie says:

    Deep breaths. Deep breaths.

  8. Beth says:

    Here’s your prescription – take the day off – don’t talk don’t work don’t do anything you don’t want to girl. This time of year drives everybody crazy…

  9. dawn says:

    “funky-irritable-moody-bitchy-depressed
    because-I-am-over-worked-and-I-cant-relax
    with-the-racing-thoughts-jumbled-in-my-head
    there-is-too-much-to-do
    I-am-screaming-on-the-inside-smiling-on-the-outside
    please-god-make-it-stop
    mode….”

    Hey… you just described me… diagnosed me… now I know what’s wrong with me… except you missed my PMS and muscle spasm πŸ˜‰
    Think I’m gonna take a holiday break real soon!

    Oh and great post title btw πŸ™‚

  10. The best friend says:

    i’ll write you a kick ass doctors note with believable letterhead, and a fake prescription for solitude. im faxing it over. is everyone still using the same fax machine on your floor or what?

  11. mikster says:

    I’m often blankness… and mindless for that matter.

  12. Meleah says:

    Mimzie:

    I will take Deep Breaths until I pass out

    Beth:

    I really wish I could. I am considering taking at least a 1/2 day on Friday.

    Dawn:

    Awww…honey I feel YOUR PAIN! (I feel this way without PMS. I cant imagine the state of mind I would be in with THAT on top of this).

    BFF:

    Dood, do that! For real! You know my fax #…but I think you should send it directly to my boss! heheheh

    Mikster:

    You? No way… your blog is too funny to be blank.

  13. jp says:

    Feel better. Let me know if you want to go out to dinner for some R&R.

    Jesus, did I just ask you out in your blog comments? Well, I’m sure you get it all the time.

  14. Graham says:

    lol! It sounds like you need a muse…. LOL! When do you want me to fly over? πŸ˜‰

    ps. I’ll be more the glad to write you a Doctor’s note. And the reason for absence will read “Just because!!!!”

    Take care ~ Graham πŸ™‚

  15. Chefmom says:

    I’ve decided I’m running away…feel free to join me πŸ™‚
    We’ll just park our asses on an Island with no phones, hot waiters serving us beverages and bake ourselves until we’re back to being normal….I believe that’s after the New year. You really have had a rough 6 weeks, when you write all down. The New Year can only prove to be better!

  16. Ricardo says:

    Isn’t it scary when this happens? It will come back but when it’s gone it totally sucks!

  17. Meleah says:

    JP:

    No one has ever asked me out on a blog comment. Email maybe? Comment=Never! (i guess there really is a first time for everything)

    Graham:

    That’s the BEST Note…EVER! πŸ™‚

    Chef Mom:

    Ill GO! Take me with you please! (just as long as there is a wireless internet connection and I can bring my MAC I am DOWN!) xxoo

    Ricardo:

    I am completely EMPTY. Blank. Running on ZERO.

  18. cmk says:

    Re-reading my own blog lately, I think the blankness is something that is going around like the flu! Hope you get through this quickly–you are one of my favorite reads every day. πŸ™‚ (And, hey, if you and Chef Mom decide to split for a while, can I come, too? PLEASE?!?!?!)

  19. happens to everyone ..kick back and relax for a time ..we wil stillbe here when yoo get back…:)

  20. me.olly says:

    I thought I was the only one ready to crack + crumble and I can sooooooooooooooooooooooo relate to”sceaming on the inside” you get it too?????????
    YET I REMAIN PAINFULLY OPTOMISTIC THINGS WILL BRIGHTEN UP SOON BABE.
    XOXOX
    LUV YA BUNCHES
    OLLY

  21. Momo Fali says:

    And yet, we all show up and read your blank thoughts!

  22. paisley says:

    just breathe baby girl… it’ll all come blasting back to you!!!!!!!

  23. Joanne says:

    Sometimes, all you need is a break. Blank or not, a post is another reason to stalk your blog. Kidding!!! Kind of. Hahaha, it’ll come back, sooner or later! =)

  24. Stealth says:

    Dear Meleah’s Boss:

    I hereby excuse her from work from now until Jan. 5th. Please send her home today with her full Christmas bonus that reflects all of the ass-busting work she has done. (Just read her self-review). Don’t make me have to come to New Jersey (especailly when Jon Bon Jovi is out of town). Thank you in advance.

    -Dr. Stealth

  25. Exposed says:

    Note to self- negotiate for extra BTFO days in my contract the next time I’m faced with a job interview. Until then I LOVE Graham’s excuse note!

  26. Oh dear…well this may be bad timing but I’ve tagged ya! Of course a tag is an easy way to post…so if you’re interested drop by!

  27. Meleah says:

    CMK:

    Of course you can come with us! I think we are all a little beaten down

    Robert:

    Yeah. I most certainly need a break.

    Olly:

    We are always on the same wave length.

    MoMo Fali:

    Thats because I have the BEST blogger community of kick ass peeps! πŸ™‚ And you have to be one of my all time favorite commenter’s. I die (from laughter) when I read some of the comments you leave on other peoples sites.

    Paisley:

    I hope so.

    Joanne:

    Okay.

    Stealth:

    THANK YOU. Im printing that and putting it on his desk! xxoxoxoxooxx

    Exposed:

    Graham & Stealth had GREAT notes! and FYI please make sure you get enough Personal, Sick, and VACATION days in any contact with future employment. I dont know how they expect people to do a GOOD job, when we are TIRED and RESENTFUL.

    Drowsey:

    Nah, that’s cool. Thanks for thinking of ME! I think I can handle a Meme! xxoo

  28. Michael C says:

    That’s how the last 2 months have been for me. Hang in there!!!! If I get a good idea, I shall send it to you!
    πŸ˜‰

  29. melissa says:

    don’t you just hate when that happens? luckily, there aren’t any holidays for a bit…for me, at least, with chanukkah just past us. there are a ton of birthdays coming up…blog fodder, for sure!
    but…look what happens when you have nothing to say…you get a kagillion comment!
    hope it passes for you and you’re able to relax!
    take care…

  30. Rolando says:

    To Meleah’s Doctor,

    Please excuse Meleah from blogging this week. She’s currently suffering from blankbrainitis. It’s serious and contagious. I recommend 2 weeks of recovery and an 20% increase in salary retroactive beginning on 12/1/07.

    πŸ™‚

  31. Meleah says:

    MichaelC:

    This BLOWS.

    (and not in the GOOD way)

    Melissa:

    Thanks.

    Rolando:

    HA HA HA HA. xxoo

  32. Ditto. I feel so…..empty and….flat. Not a’tall like my usual perky self.
    I think you need a little pick-me-up…in the form of a big ol’ BODACIOUS black BRA! Coming your way soon, so LOOK OUT!!!! πŸ™‚

  33. Meleah says:

    Olga:

    I think YOU are JUST what I need. xxoo I cant WAIT to have you and all of your perkiness. πŸ™‚

  34. Avery says:

    I know just how you feel! I should be writing right now. Instead I’m catching up on my backlog of Google reader. I just can’t get it together!

  35. Meleah says:

    Avery

    Oh Man…I cant wait to make it BACK OUT into the world of BLOGS.

    I miss my people! I miss everyones posts. I am doing my best to try to get to everyone. But, if I miss anyone or some posts, I have already dedicated this upcoming Sunday for a day well spent in Pajamas and surfing / catching up with all my favorites. xxoo

  36. I will do my best to perk you up, deary!

  37. Meleah says:

    Olga!

    πŸ™‚

    xxoo

    I know you will.

  38. AntiBarbie says:

    I hate when those muses of ours take off without warning. You think they would at least leave a note, maybe a beeper number or something. I mean, sheesh, How rude can you get?

  39. Meleah says:

    AntiBarbie:

    HA HA HA…A beeper number! For a muse! aaaaaaaaahahhahahah

    THANK YOU for THAT laugh.

    and yes, It is RUDE!

  40. Roshan says:

    I know how you feel. I go through it a lot and then think of a song or a music video I like and then embed the video from youtube.

  41. Meleah says:

    Roshan:

    Whats driving me crazy is that I do have a lot of material. I have TONS of things to write about. I just cant get my head CLEAR long enough to make sentences.

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