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So Yeah…

How about my weekend?

Um. Well. It was not so good.

I wasted two full days on a bunch of nothing.

[kicking myself]

Yep.

I did not meet any of my self-imposed goals. Except for digging out my old journals and beginning the process of organizing them. That is going to take forever. Apparently, I save everything.

[sigh]

As some of you know, Saturday (and into Sunday) was The Worst Day. Ever. So, let’s not even ‘go there’. M’kay? After alienating and later apologizing to my entire family, I am going to pretend like nothing ever happened and continue on with my life as usual.

[Or, I can just hang my head in shame?]

I think my brain has some sort of mental defect wherein I am only capable of imagining ‘The Worst Case Scenario’ rather than finding or believing there will be a solution to the problem at hand. And then I choose to stay in the problem. No matter what suggestions or ideas anyone has to offer me.

[Sorry Mom and Dad]

I will tell you that during my close call and the possibility of almost loosing My Apple Computer for repairs, I was unable to write. Or read. Or blog. Or think.

[figures]

Fortunately, I am elated to report that presently all Apple Systems and My Computer seem to be working perfectly fine, at full capacity.

Tragedy. Averted.

[whew]

By Sunday, I was beaten down mentally and emotionally. I was still brewing and feeling incredibly guilty for being mean towards my family. I know they were just trying to help me. They just don’t understand how important the life I’ve carved out in my little corner of the internet has become to me.

One of my biggest character defects has to be my stubbornness. Once I’ve made up my mind about something, there is no changing it. There is no talking to me. Especially, when it’s that time of the month and I am already beyond irrational. I decided it was best for everyone if I just hid out in my bedroom to avoid any further contact with those I may have offended.

Thankfully, once my computer was fixed, I found the time to visit all of your blogs for some much needed laughter. All is right in my world again.

On a completely unrelated note, I received JCH’s back to school information in the mail. I practically fainted when I saw the words in black and white that my son will be starting The 7th Grade on September 4th 2008.

[yikes]

When did JCH grow up so fast? And where in the world did all of that time go?

The 7th Grade was the beginning of the end for me. I had moved to a brand new town and attended a brand new school. It was awful. I remember this was the age when the cliques ruled the school and finding my ‘image’ was essential. Fitting in, gossip, and fashion statements became of utmost importance. This was the age that pre-determined what sort of identity I was going to carry through my formative teenage years.

I can only hope and pray that my family and I have done a good enough job (so far) raising JCH to make better choices than I ever did. I am going to do my best to keep the lines of communication open between my son & I during this year. I will be paying a lot more attention to the kinds of friends he decides to spend his time with.

Anyway, before I go off on that tangent, here is to a new week. A fresh start. And a shiny new keyboard.

Hopefully I wont have any more issues, or drama, and I will be able to attend to my family like a rational person. I am off to respond to the billions of unanswered emails in my inbox, and maybe I will even get to breathe during my lunch hour.

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  • well i can say for a fact that my parents world changed drastically the day i entered seventh grade.. what is it about junior high that makes a child seem like they have moved to a foreign land?? best of luck to both of you…

    let the games begin…

  • Stubbornness is not a character defect… It’s a great quality and quite useful when channeled properly… like as in writing a book 😉

  • Meleah

    Paisley:
    I know 7th grade is Hard Times. I was drinking and smoking by 7th grade. *shudder* to think what choices my son will make over the next few years.

    Dawn:
    Thank you for saying that, Stubbornness can be positive!
    Xxoo

  • Sometimes we all have bad days (or bad weekends). But you’ve bounced back, and that’s the key!

    Maybe it’s having your computer back – maybe it’s something more (or less). But, anyway, have a great week…

    And 7th grade (on another tangent) – our oldest starts 8th grade next week. Whoa, where did all those years go….

  • THANK GOD your computer is ok. So SCARY, isn’t it?! JCH in 7th grade….I have to admit, that was the beginning of the end for me too. I was in a school that was grades 7-12….torture. He is an awesome young man. I think he will do very well!

  • 7th Grade is magical.

    That’s about the time that hot pedophile female teachers start taking an interest in you.

    At least, they do nowadays.

    I wish I was in 7th grade.

  • Meleah

    Lance:
    So you survived 7th grade with your own child? How bad was it?

    Chef Mom:
    My fingers are crossed that my son will be wiser than I was at his age. As for the truamatic events of this weekend? Just read the post below this one. I really had a *heart attack* at best.

    moooooooooooooooog35:
    Oh my god. Great. Now I am going to be worried my son will loose his virginity to one of them! Thanks for the laughs and the nightmares Il’l be having tonight.

  • My kid started 6th today and I feel the same way.

  • 7th grade – my son – I heard very little of what went on. Short answers, little information. Ignorance is bliss…well, maybe not… Luckily my wife does some substitute teaching at the school – so she’s a little more attuned to what is going on there.

    They’re getting older, and that means that problems can be bigger. We, luckily, didn’t have any. But I heard some things that made me glad my son wasn’t involved with some of the kids in his grade. The teenage years – it can be an interesting time…

  • You have your Mac back and you have a lovely, sensible son with a great head on his shoulders. All will be well. I’m sure of it!

  • Meleah

    Hammer:
    Its upsetting right!

    Lance:
    Yep. Thats what I get the short answers. But I don’t have an internal spy.
    Im definitley worried for my son’s future. He better NOT be like me or his father for that matter!

    Selma:
    Thats what I am hoping!!

  • a full moon definitely hovers when a kid enters the 7th grade. good luck and i wish you a great school year!

    glad your computer is back in good shape. 😉

  • Lee

    How dare you do an impression of me without asking my permission! 😀 It’s really hard to appreciate the natural beauty of a swamp when you’re up to your butt in alligators!

    I can understand exactly where you’re coming from, because I’ve been there so many times myself. Lately, when I feel myself getting tense, or upset I take two or three breaths before I say anything so that I won’t have to go back and eat those words later. Some days I’m better at that than others.

  • Meleah

    Maria:
    Yep. 7th grade is terrifying!
    [For me to watch my son!]
    I hope your kids have a fantastic School Year too!!
    [In college!]
    Thankfully my computer is fixed. I really freaked out.

    Lee:
    My poor mother. No matter what she said to me, NOTHING was going to help me feel better about my Apple being broken. I was sooo angry and upset, and concerned because without my computer, I do NOT know what to do with myself. The thought of being cut off from the internet against my will was driving me to madness. However, that is NOT an excuse for the way I behaved. Oh well. Lesson Learnt. Right?

    Its nice to know I am not the only one acting a fool or eating crow!

  • All the time when I’m really mean to family, I call and say sorry. They know it’s not them but a situation or either I’m just plain tired.
    I continue to look at my kid and ask when and how did you get here. Lol. She’s going to the 3rd grade and it happened so fast, I’m like WT, slow down girl. Yeah keeping the lines of communication open is so important. I didn’t feel I had that when I was younger, so most stuff I kept to myself.

    Here’s to a new keyboard!

  • The world is divided into two types of people. Those that blog (the white hats) and those that don’t (the black hats). I wear the only white hat in my family and I am forever circling the wagons, protecting my little corner. 😀

    (insert secret handshake here)

    Have a great Monday Meleah.

  • You’re right in that Monday is the start of a new week. Keep your chin up, it’ll be okay!

  • I truly believe that you are a great mom. JCH has turned out to be a fine and sensible young man, and he will continue to grow and shine.

    You know, I find that all the friends I know on this world are stubborn, myself included. I haven’t met anyone who isn’t. So stubbornness is great, we should celebrate it, ha!

  • Meleah

    Valerie:
    I wasn’t trying to be mean. They know that I was seriously stressed and just happened to get my peroiod at the same exact time my computer was freezing. But now they think I am in danger of being addicted to the internet and want me to quote GET A LIFE.

    Tree:
    I am the only blogging member of my household as well.

    Diva:
    I’m trying! Too bad I had to work today. I feel with that attitude I could have gotten other (better) things taken care of today. Oh well.

    RMH:
    Cheers to our stubbornness. Hopefully like Dawn said that feature will only help me accomplish finish writing the biggest challenge of my life!

    JCH better BEHAVE. I’d hate to have to kick his ass.

  • Jen

    7th grade…uughh…the awkwardness of 7th grade… I don’t think I would go back to that year. You’re in for tons of fun my friend.

    JCH better behave…we don’t want you to have to kick his ass. LOL!

    Here’s to a new week. We both need fresh starts…starting now!

  • cmk

    We ALL need to vent at certain times–unfortunately, we usually direct it at those we love. They understand. 🙂

    You all are just BABIES talking about your kids! I am in the situation where my oldest GRANDDAUGHTER is going into 7th grade–now THAT is a scary feeling. 😉 (And I will, once again, explain how I could possibly have this old of a grandchild: I had an arranged marriage–I was the first woman to EVER give birth at the age of 5–my oldest ALSO gave birth at the age of 5. So, yeah, that puts me somewhere in my early 20’s, right? :D)

  • At least the family didn’t get your attention the old fashioned way…hitting you between the eyes with a 2 x 4. Not that I know anything about…I just heard that somewhere. 😉

    I’m glad the crisis was diverted and the Apple Store was able to help you out. Did you leave any copies of your video for them to pass around?

  • Meleah

    Jen R:
    I could NEVER go back to the 7th grade.
    *NEVER*
    That was one of the worst years in my childhood.
    And Ive had some pretty bad years.

    “STARTING NOW!”
    (hahahahaha)
    I love starting NOW.

    It’s a fresh start deal for the both of us!
    xxoo

    CMK:
    Thankfully they did understand.

    Geez. I dont know what I will do when my GRANDCHILD reaches the 7th grade. Hell, that would mean my son was having sex, and I am sooooooooooo NOT ready for that to happen. Although I think he is almost ready. *gulp*

    And that is a totally believable story as to WHY you are such a YOUNG Gramma!
    🙂

    Dazd;
    No, I was raised the wooden spoon way. Not the wooden 2×4 way!

    I am such a fan of the staff and service at the Apple Store. Just ONE MORE REASON to love All Things Apple Products.

  • Dearest Meleah, I am sorry I have been away from your blog for so long!! I have been going crazy mad with trying to catch up with myself… but am sat here now with a cup of tea and a biscuit (“a cookie” to you Yanks…lol!) and am having a great time reading through your wonderful recent posts 😀

    OMG!!! I am so glad that tradegy was averted on Saturday. It is like a horrible nightmare being without the link to the outside world. I know, as I had to endure 2 WHOLE weeks of it, and it nearly killed me. I bit my fingernails right up to my elbows…lol!!!

    I’m so glad to be catching up as you always manage to put a great big smile on my face and I REALLY REALLY appreciate that.

    Enormous hugs from me,

    Graham xxoo

  • you have a life, you live on the computer, what’s wrong with that? 😉 i could be addicted to the internet..i love it. there’s so much to do…i already said i want to quit my job and work for the web. lol

    everything’s gonna be alright!

  • So glad that catastrophe was averted. I came home from work today and couldn’t get online. As I’m totally techno-challenged I started to freak. My Better Half is out of town this week and I wasn’t sure if I had to reset the router or what. Thank goodness he called me back right away and I got back on.

    Meleah, you have a life. Part of it is on the internet…but a big part is your writing, which means you need your computer.

    Good luck with your son in 7th grade. You’re a good mom so he’ll be fine.

    Big hugs to you!!

  • We all wonder if we’ve done enough for our kids and that they’ll turn out to have a much better life than we did and I’m sure you’ve done a great job of raising JCH and he’ll grow up to be a fine young man 😀 And they do grow up pretty fast don’t they?

  • Meleah

    Graham:
    Aw. Ive missed you. Im glad you are home from holiday!
    xxoo

    Valerie:
    See! Yeah! That’s what I am saying.
    xxoo
    🙂

    Employee No 3699:
    Thank You for THAT comment.
    You really made MY DAY and MY NIGHT with those words.

    Nick:
    Thanks dood!
    I have no idea when my boy got so big!!

  • Eva

    Here’s to fresh starts!
    [clink!]

    (that’s us clinking glasses full of alcoholic beverages)

  • 7th grade sucked for me, wouldn’t go back to that age for a million dollars but I am happy to report that my son is beginning 8th this year (totally agree, where did the time go?) and 7th was no big deal for him. He kept the same nice friends he has known since elementary school, he got a little more cocky and snotty in attitude but nothing too terrible, and he still likes to have a goodnight hug so know there is hope that your son will not suffer too many ill effects of the jr. high years. We will see how 8th grade goes…

  • Whatever happened over the weekend, I really hope that it was resolved and things start improving for you.

    7th grade-weird year for me too. I think it was the start of a downward spiral for me mentally-but at the same time I met my best friend to this day. So I suppose it wasn’t ALL bad. Just not much fun.

  • Meleah

    Eva:
    Hell Yes.

    Beth:
    I am hoping that 7th grade for my son, is like YOUR son’s and NOT like mine!

    Silver:
    At least you got a best friend out of 7th grade!

  • That’s why we make mistakes! So our kids can learn from them.

    P.S. SO glad your computer is fixed! Whew!

  • Okay. Moving on to next post. HAVE to stop reading your blog backwards. But your Mac? NOT WORKING? ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

  • Meleah

    Momo Fali:
    I LOVE THAT PHOTO OF YOU!!

    Yeah, hopefully my son will learn from my mistakes. Lord knows I didn’t learn from my mother.

    If my computer was NOT fixed? I woud be crying in the corner sucking my thumb in the fetal position!!

    KellyPea:
    It was NOT working. I was flipping out. Alas all is well and righ in my world again! Thankfully!!!!
    xxoo
    (and you always read my blog backwards!)

  • I had a completely different opinion about blogging and “bloggers” before I actually became one. You can’t fully understand its importance unless you engage in it, I think.

    I spent most of my life playing the “worst case scenario” game. It stems from years in survival mode, I think. I still do battle with it on occasion. xoxo

  • Meleah

    Steph:
    I am really bad with that. And I am not OPEN to suggestions when I get in that Worst Case Scenario mode. Yanno?

    And you are right..unless you are a part of the blog world and a highly active member you cant understand what it does or brings to your life.

    Thanks for making me feel less crazy!!

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