I haven’t been sleeping well. I haven’t been feeling well. And I haven’t been eating well. But I had to get up crazy early for yet another doctors appointment. And man, did I wake up in a bad mood. I didn’t even want to get out of bed.
You see…I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting, lately. But not the good kind. I’ve been much too focused on the negative things that have happened over the past year of my life. Cuz, yanno, that’s really healthy.
So there I was in full-blown-pity-party-mode, ready to spend the day drowning my self-inflicted misery with Häagen-Dazs coffee ice cream, when suddenly, I over heard music. Specifically, one song. Coming from my son’s bedroom. And it reminded me of a very special day he and I shared this past summer.
While driving in the car, my 15 year old, Justin, turned to me with a CD in his hand and said, “Mom, I want to play a song because it always makes me think of you. And I want to dedicate this to you.”
“Sure,” I replied, having NO CLUE what to expect.
He put the disk in the CD player and cued the song.
And then I proceeded to sob big.fat.tears. while listening to the lyrics.
Seriously, did you listen to that?
Yes?
Good.
Apparently, Justin really does appreciate all that I do for him, because that “dedication” came out of NOWHERE. He didn’t want anything from me. And, he didn’t need anything from me. He just wanted to thank me.
It’s funny, how something as simple as a song, can completely alter my mood.
I’ll come back and comment later. When I’ve stopped bawling my eyes out!!!!
Music is my cheap therapy.
**Thumbs up**
Gives me hope for today’s teens. Great young man you have there.
Awwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!! You have a good son 🙂
I really do believe in music therapy. I have been dealing with depression for a few months now and my therapist has been working her ass off to do everything possible to avoid me being on medication. A while back I found a really dumb song on youtube that I began listening to every morning, and for some unknown reason it really helped me get out of bed. I even found a ridiculous version of Charlie Sheen winning that REALLY helped me on those BAD BAD days. Nothing quite like shouting out “ARE YOU BI-POLAR? I’M BI-WINNINGGGGGG” to help get me out the door to face the world. 🙂
Feel better soon chica.
PS- My husband STILL thinks you are the hottest blogger on the planet.
**sob** That’s**sob sob sob* our *sob* Justin *snot ball*!
“From the mouths of babes…” even when they’re teens. You’ve got some kind of kid there, but just look where he came from. I really hope that song works on your mood, let me know how that goes.
Ah, but it’s not just the song that changed your mood. It is the memory attached to the song. You and your son shared a very special moment, and it’s the love and the memory that changed your mood. Hope the day goes well for you, and you get a fresh perspective on life.
See!
TOTALLY.
Thank you.
Aw. MoRae!
I love you. SOFA KING much.
And yes that Sheen remix is a classic!
Mommy, I kid you not.
I had to PULL OVER the car.
And we hugged, while I cried like a BABY.
Mood = MUCH BETTER.
Health = NOT SO MUCH!
You rock, Jim.
For serious.
Thanks, Linda R.
You’re 100% right about that!
I adore that song and I adore that your wonderful son thinks of you when he plays it.
You have had a rough year, Baby. But it’s going to get better. When you are feeling punk, it’s hard to keep your spirits up, but try! I hope the doctor’s visit brings some ideas for you feeling better. You are much loved, Meleah!
I adore that song and I adore that your wonderful son thinks of you when he plays it.
You have had a rough year, Baby. But it’s going to get better. When you are feeling punk, it’s hard to keep your spirits up, but try! I hope the doctor’s visit brings some ideas for you feeling better. You are much loved, Meleah!
Thanks, sis.
I am in a MUCH better mood, than I have been all week. So that’s a start. Right?
Thanks, sis.
I am in a MUCH better mood, than I have been all week. So that’s a start. Right?
Good luck at your appointment. I really pray things start looking up. Enough, already! Still, part of it keeping your spirits up Honey. You’ll get there!
xoxox
It’s nice to hear a song about something other than sex 😉 What a lovely boy you have, though I’m not surprised. I really hope you feel much better soon 🙂
Aw! Thank you, Babs!
I am in a much better mood.
And FB was hilarious today with Kathy’s “Photoshart” talks!
I just knew she said Shotofart 😉
My money was TOTALLY on Photoshart!!
AWESOME song, Meleah!!!!!
AWESOME, son you have!
LOVE the words! And isn’t something how in the midst of feeling down, something will SWOOP in and allow us to re-see how much grace we have in our lives? I remember going through financial bankruptcy and feeling SO depressed, lost, and totally worthless. But it was during that time, when I had everything taken away from me, that I realized the REALLY important stuff could NEVER be taken away from me.
And that is…how much I was LOVED.
And you are too, my friend!
(((((( Meleah )))))
X ya bunches!
That was super sweet of Justin!
Oh Ron!
You totally get it.
Lately, I’ve been soooo worried, and depressed. I’m sick of being sick. I realize that’s why I can’t have a job, which in turn makes me FREAK out about my future and my son’s future.
How am I going to buy him a car next year? Or pay for his college? Will I ever finish writing my book? Will I ever be a published author? What the fuck am I doing with the rest of my life? Will I be single forever? When will I
ever be able to afford to move back out of my parent’s house? [Because if I am still living here when I do turn 40, someone please just get a gun, and shoot me in the face.]
Of course, I don’t have any answers to these questions. Maybe I should schedule an appointment with a psychic or a fortune-teller. Or maybe, I just need to light a fire under my own ass and make these things happen instead of just talking about them, and thinking about them, and writing about them.
Okay so I’ve completely digressed.
But then…hearing this song, changed all of that for me.
And I’ve been MUCH more at ease, ever since.
Thanks, BK.
It sure was!
Very cool of Justin! I’m glad it made you feel better!
Me too, Marty!
I think I totally get it because, like you, I’m a Libra. And I know how we think, feel, and act.
Just remember that you everything you need INSIDE you.
Be gentle with yourself.
And follow your instincts and heart, my friend. Because they will NEVER guide you wrong.
X ya, my fellow Libra.
((((( Meleah )))))
You’re the freaking best!
I love having you as my Libra Twin!
Ditto to you, my Libra Twin!
X
xoxox
You are a lucky mom of a sweet boy!! My son plays stuff like “I just had sex” for me when we are in the car together – luckily he doesn’t dedicate that to me!
Holy crap, I just listened to that song and no wonder you bawled your eyes out. You have the best kid ever. Mostly because of you. 🙂
Holy crap, I just listened to that song and no wonder you bawled your eyes out. You have the best kid ever. Mostly because of you. 🙂
Ahahahahahhaah!
Aw! Thanks, Margaret.
There are so many lyrics that actually pertain to my relationship with my son.
Like for instance, I am famous for letting him skip school [once in a blue moon] and calling him out for a sick day.
Sweet!
Thanks, Alison!!
🙂
That’s cool. I dedicate a song to my mother too – Number of The Beast by Iron Maiden
That’s cool. I dedicate a song to my mother too – Number of The Beast by Iron Maiden
Um….. ?
What would we do without our kids? They really show us what we’ve done right in life. You’ve raised a great kid!
Sometimes it is the small reminders of how much we mean to someone that can turn a day around. I hope the doctor’s appointment went okay.
Thanks, Anne!
You rock.
Ok, it took a whole day, but I can finally come back here without crying (I just can’t listen to the song, though!). You know, I only met Justin for a few minutes when I visited you, but I was struck by what a well-mannered and thoughtful young man he was. Being woken up to say hello to the crazy stalker blogger lady who drove from another country to meet his mom, and he wasn’t cranky, monosyllabic or resentful. You did a good job, sweet thing.
Awwwwww!!
Now you made ME cry!
xoxoxo
Awwww. That’s beautiful. You’ve got me crying too. Sob.