Momma Mia, Mea Culpa

Kellypea: Thank YOU. for "getting it" ... I know I probably put more labels on myself, but still, well you know....

Meleah, I get it. Right now, I'm going back and forth with the whole "gettajob" thing that will require me to leave the house -- with decent clothes and hair -- and receive money for said effort. It can be a kind of buffer for other things that are going on in life -- like wading through all those memories you just have.
And I know about those UNUSUAL labels. I have a few myself.

Amber: Stay in School and HOME as long as you can... the work force SUCKS ASS.

I have got to start working again! Seriously. That would be the solution to my increasing inertia

OBVIOUSLY, I need to clarify the intention of this post. I am the furthest thing from a cheer-leading office spokeswoman.

What I was TRYING (poorly) to say is this: After spending the weekend reading that book and bogged down with some pretty shitty memories...

But for the fact, I had to get up and go into work, I probably would have ended up spending the day in bed, depressed, miserable, feeling sorry for myself, and hiding from the world, while replaying the same old tapes filled with the same old baggage in my head.

Being at work, ON THIS PARTICULAR isolated day, suddenly, and momentarily, seemed damn sure better than being held up in one of those lock ups, like Cascade or New Hope. and held against my will. No one ever thought I would live this long, or land myself a job HERE (in an office) and last for 5 whole years.

For a moment it was nice to feel like a 'regular girl' with a 'regular job' instead of thinking about all of the USUAL labels that follow me around.

But this (office life) is still very far from the life I want for myself… Maybe I am giving up on the idea of the life I dream about all together? I don’t know.

I am probably going to have to write some follow up post, but for now this comment is all I can muster up.

whistle while you work, whistle while you work. Well I don't have much to say other than I am on vacation from WORK!! this whole entire week so I can rest after completing my first Triathlon and having to find out I have a fractured left foot. So that's work for me :)

FV

I should feel more like this about work. But I know I never will. There is so much more trouble I can get into, I mean so many more things I can accomplish, during 8 hours.

got the email and replied. and I have never heard of him but Ill look him up.

Ive been WORKING since I was 13 years old. at 32, I have already put in 19 years of LABOUR. talk about being OVER IT. I think I was just happy for a BRIEF moment at work today since I was reminded HOW FAR I have come ... the fact that I can hold a job in "regular" society, after the life I have had. always amazes me, but it doesn't mean I WANT TO BE THERE! Home is always my first choice!

i have been working forever.. i never used to mind it,, but lately,, i am sooooo over it... every day i leave with a heavy heart... it isn't the job,, or the people or the money or anything,,, i just want to stay home.....

Thanks Devin. and I know you will. (by the by have you ever watched Bill Burr?)

PS... I answered your Cascade question with a quick version (for now) and sent you an email.

You are far from a "regular" girl. And thanks for the compliments. I hope I am on an HBO special one day. Ill call it, "Devin: Bigger and Blacker." Yes the title has already been taken by Chris Rock, but why mess with success?

Some Girl.. I am still laughing over our BiCoastal Havoc. Its so NICE to know someone feels the SAME SHIT! ya know? (damn office life)

But I promise you "A Guy, A Blog and A Photoshop" will still be funny when you are sober. Check out his Harry Potter review, or any of his life's True Hollywood Stories. I die every time. He will be an HBO special one day.

"But this (office life) is still very far from the life I want for myself… Maybe I am giving up on the idea of the life I dream about all together? I don’t know." I LIVE THIS EVERY DAY!!!!! I feel you pain....

The Thelma & Louise bit seems oh so more enticing today...

PS: I found A Guy, A Blog and a Photoshop through you!! I laughed my ass off last night reading it....and it was compounded by me being slightly tipsy....He better be just as funny when sober and hung-over. That will be the true test!!

I took me FOREVER to find that waxing story. As soon as I read your post, I had to share that with you! Im not in a bad mood, or angry. I'm just bleack.

Thanks for stopping by--hope I cheered you up (I was afraid after I read some of your posts today that it you might come by and get depressed or pissed).

You now have the record for the longest comment ever on my blog--but hilarious--made my day:)

~Becky

It's damn sure better than being at Cascade or New Hope. But this (office life) is still very far from the life I want for myself... Maybe I am giving up on the idea of the life I dream about all together? I don't know.

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