Momma Mia, Mea Culpa

Now that I know who I am, and I know exactly what I want to be, I am going to have to make some changes in my life in order to achieve my goals. The biggest change(s) that I will have to make are with my daily schedule / current routine.

Since I last checked, there are still only 24 hour hours in a day (8 of which I have to dedicate to sleep thanks to my fragile immune system). I have learned I need to be a little bit more selective about choosing how to spend those other 16 waking hours wisely.

Unfortunately, there is nothing I can do about how much of my time (10 hours each day) is hijacked by commuting and that fulltime day job thingy.

(The only good thing about commuting? Using that time to call back the people in my ‘Real Life’ whom I tend to neglect.)

Simply between getting the proper amount of sleep each night and going to work, leaves only 6 hours per week day for me to decide what to do with that time.

Minus One Hour – Dinner With My Family.

Minus One Hour – Quality ‘Family Time’ After Dinner.

(Which includes checking my sons homework and all of us getting together to watch some TV.)

Minus ½ hour to get ‘unready’ at the end of the day: wash my face, brush my teeth, get into my beloved pajamas, set my alarm clock…ect.

Total “Free Time” for me to “Work With” = 3½ hours per week day.

Sounds like a lot right?

Wrong.

I can assure you that a measly 3½ hours is NOT NEARLY ENOUGH time to read and reply to all of my emails (which I love so never stop sending them) swing by everyone’s blogs, leave comments, and construct a new post for this blog.

This past Sunday, I came to the realization that I am never going to finish writing my book if I don’t truly buckle down and start treating that more like ‘a job’. Complete with blocking off specific chunks of time solely for the purposes of directing my efforts, time, and undivided attention towards completion.

(I am not getting any younger over here. And as much as I wish I could transfer what’s in my head onto paper without really working at it, I don’t think any book has ever been written via osmosis.)

-Thus implementing some STRUCTURE in my life has become a necessity. -

While yes, it is true, my writing comes off much better when I am legitimately ‘inspired’ to write. However in this case, I am extremely driven and 100% dedicated to this project. As such, I must act as if my book really is a project. (Like with deadlines, and due dates, and outlines, and All That Jazz.)

As much as it pains me, I don’t think I will be able to keep up with daily posting and working on my book simultaneously. As much as I’d like to suspend the reality of my situation, its going to be entirely too difficult to turn the mundane details of my everyday life into a riveting read, AND, whip out chapters.

I have a very different writing style for the book which takes A LOT out of me. I have to go to That Place where I can remember everything in vivid detail in order to produce sentences that will evoke the reader into feeling the experience.

But…do NOT get me wrong.

I am NOT taking a ‘break from blogging’. I am NOT leaving ‘The Internet’ by any means. I am way too addicted, attached, and involved with my community of kick ass people. And I love it. And I love every single one of you.

But, I think? I am going to TRY MY BEST to refrain from blogging every day. I am going to attempt to only post on a Three Day A Week schedule. Like Monday’s, Wednesday’s & Friday’s?

Unless, of course, something exceptionally ‘blog worthy’ actually occurs.

(Like a ‘Liz Lemon’ moment, or “Vitamin Shot” Wednesday’s, or when I need to complain about the massive traffic, or when I can’t get rid of an annoying hangnail, my split ends, or even stubbing my toe. Yanno the really IMPORTANT stuff like that.)

I am going to try and subdue my incessant urge to post Every Single Day. I am going to hold myself back from filing in the gaps with emailed jokes or posting bullshit posts just to post something. (If that makes any sense?)

Sometimes, I fear that if I don’t post every single day, that I may loose some of the readers I have worked so hard to maintain. On the other hand, I know there are a loyal bunch of you that will stick by my side and continue to read this blog no matter what. And for that I will be forever grateful.

This is not goodbye. This is not a break. This is not an away message.

I am just changing things up a bit.

I will still be HERE. And I will still be popping over to all of your blogs; supporting and laughing with (or in some cases AT) you.

I just need to focus those 3½ hours a day constructively.

And somewhere in the midst of all of this, I need find The Time to actually ‘Live A Little’.

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