I have come to realize that as much as I have changed over the last five years…there is one innate factor which remains the same.
I am a Night Person.
I have never been a Day Person. I don’t think I will ever BE a ‘Day Person’.
For some reason I do my best ‘work’, my best ‘writing’, or best ‘movie editing’, between the hours of 1am and 6am. There is something about the dead of night that inspires me. That heavy silence moves me to places I might not otherwise travel. I am free and uninhibited. (Even if I am scared of the dark.)
Of course, being a Night Person conflicts with the whole having a day job schedule I am forced to live by. In the daytime, I am robotic, almost mechanical on every level. Simply going through the motions and mimicking the behavior of the others surrounding me.
[You ‘Day People’ are ruling my universe. And you are making me look bad. I see you, beaming with that fresh morning glow and coffees in hand, welcoming the day. How do you do it? I struggle every morning to violently blink my way into consciousness.]
I thought after 5 years of getting up at 6m rather than going to bed at 6am, I would get used to these hours. No such luck. I don’t know what it will take, or if I will ever be able to cross over to the land of the Day People.
[Any suggestions? Getting out of bed in the morning should not be this difficult.]
Of course, since I happen to be in the middle of working on two more movie projects, my book, trying to run two blogs, being a mother and hold a full time DAY job…I have not been to bed before 2am on any given night. But I am not complaining about that. In fact, when the clock strikes 2am, I am upset that I have to go to bed. That is usually about the same time I am just getting on a roll.
I wish there was a way to BUY more time, adding hours to the night. Or I wish I had the power to alter the universe somehow (if only for a few weeks) to have the Day People live on a Night Person’s schedule. (Yanno. Just until I finish up these projects.)
Maybe I can gather enough Night People to revolt? I would love to see the Day People try to function on OUR time. I’d like to see ya’ll struggle to keep your eyes open past 10pm. Then you might figure out how I feel at 6am.
Oh well. I am not that powerful.
For now, I will just have to find a way to deal with only having 4 hours of sleep at night in order to do all of the things I want, need and enjoy. Besides…Sundays are for sleeping right?
REVISED: Thanks to my mother for this handy article:
Learning to Live Like an Early Bird
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